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How to recognize and move past addictions without losing the core of our personality.

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Five years ago, a then-colleague of mine told me that he wouldn’t be able to recognize himself if he were to quit smoking and drinking. At the time, I thought his statement was a devastatingly sad comment to have come from a thirty-four-year-old.

Fast forward a few years, and I found myself quitting smoking and dialing back on my own drinking. At some point, it dawned on me: his sentiment had become mine. It was a shocking realization for me. …

You only live once and who knows for how long

Artwork by the author. Original: Universal Pictures

There is something eerie and grotesque about aging — the skin wrinkles, memory shortens, and hair turns white or disappears entirely. Our body gradually declines and then breaks down altogether — slipping towards oblivion and death.

For decades, we overlook how cruel time is and refuse to acknowledge its ruthlessness. But it’s always present — lurking in our subconscious — ready to pull out the rug from under our feet at any moment. We endure it every day since it comes in minor portions. We deem it as a trivial component of life. …

You’ll never see such stupid and dangerous fun on this level again.

Morpheus shooting in The Matrix.
Artwork by the author. Original: Warner Bros.

I bet it’s been a while since you’ve last watched the Watchowski’s sequel, The Matrix Reloaded. Don’t worry, you’re not alone — there’s a reason for that.

Although Lana Wachowski tried to convince viewers that the plot is a lot more complex than it seems — that “it’s deconstructionist and an assault on all the things you thought to be true in the first movie” — it’s actually quite forgettable. I mean, what do you recall it’s about? First, second, third act? You’re still thinking, aren’t you? Exactly. But who cares, really? …

The cowboy we once knew is fading.

Clint Eastwood grunts in ‘Cry Macho.’
Photo: Warner Bros./HBO Max

Most critics and audiences dislike Cry Macho, and I can’t really blame them. Its script has been through a lot: it was written in the 70s and got rejected by several studios before Fox bought it in the late 80s. At first, Eastwood turned it down and did another movie instead. Then it went through the hands of Roy Scheider, Pierce Brosnan, Burt Lancaster and ended up in Schwarzenegger’s. That’s right: In 2003, he was about to play the role but then became governor and stepped back from the project.

In 2020, Eastwood got on board again to direct, produce…


Somebody explain the giant glasses!

Keanu Reeves in the mirror in ‘The Matrix Resurrections.’
Why am I not wearing glasses? Photo: Warner Bros.

1. Is Lana Wachowski’s new Matrix feature sponsored by opticians who’re hipsters in their free time? What’s with colorful and giant glass frames? They seem to have a bigger role than poor Morpheus does.

Speaking of Morpheus —

2. Is Laurence Fishburne shooting another questionable B film straight-to-video, and that’s why he’s not here? Or did he just say “I’m too old for this shit?” Regardless, his voice, charisma, and bald head are sorely missed.

3. Why is there no spoon? Or am I just not bending enough to see it?

4. Is John Wick part of the Matrix universe…

BBC Two’s ‘The North Water’ is hell, and Henry Drax is the Devil within it.

Colin Farrell kills a whale in The North Water.
Colin Farrell as Henry Drax. Photo: BBC Two/AMC+

In the very first scene of BBC Two's mini-series, The North Water, we see Henry Drax (Colin Farrell) fucking a whore. The sex is raw, ferocious, and animalistic. He’s panting while the prostitute is dead silent. They both do it out of need — Drax for satisfaction, the woman for money.

Yet, there’s something much darker lurking inside of Drax — his need is more of an instinct than a desire. His sudden impulses resemble a wild animal rather than a human being — a hyena that has to ease its hunger. …


As the freedom the pandemic gave me comes to an end, I mute the screaming thoughts in my head and let the quiet replace it.

Photo by Johannes Plenio on Pexels

I’ve recently moved house after seven years. My new place is at the bottom of a beautiful park called Sunny Hill. I used to go there frequently, but having it quite literally at my doorstep is different. When I look out my bedroom window, I don’t see a line of cars and buses anymore — I see greenery, trees, grass, by-passers walking in and out of the park.

It’s a setting that’s calming, reassuring, and amicable. It’s ideal for my lonely thoughts and welcome solitude. It’s a much-needed scene because I know that an existential catastrophe is only weeks away…


If you’re hooked on pop culture memories, these handpicked movies are for you.

Will Smith, Soleil Moon Frye, and Mark Wahlberg in the 90s.
Photo: Hulu

Do you often find yourself watching classic ’80s and ’90s films and TV shows? Or do you have a constant urge to fire up prime DMX, Limp Bizkit, or Metallica on a mundane Tuesday night? Are you someone who plays with outdated yet iconic video games like Tony Hawk Pro Skater instead of the latest ones?

If the answer is yes, I have a list for you.

Class Action Park


A jovial journey into the heart of Native American culture.

Mose and Mekko a.k.a. Lil Mike and Funny Bone
“And the Glock go pop, pop, pop!” My favorite characters, hands down. Photo: Fx/Hulu

FX’s new comedy series, Reservation Dogs, is full of ambition with one clear agenda: representing as many talented indigenous people as it possibly can. Frankly, a TV show made almost exclusively by and about Native Americans is long overdue.

That’s the social end of the series — but in its essence, Reservation Dogs is more of a casual and cheery gathering. It’s like a barbecue party in your backyard with your own people invited from all around the neighborhood. You eat, laugh, drink, and smoke a joint when your parents and their friends aren’t watching.

Waititi’s support was needed for…

You are what you watch — so choose carefully.

Quentin Tarantino poses.
QT. Source: Flickr

If you’re one of those people who randomly pick films to watch, you’re basically a different species to me. We might be able to communicate yet don’t understand each other very well.

To me, it’s somewhat surprising that many people decide what they watch based on trailers, lists, or anything that comes on a streaming platform as new. There’s nothing wrong with this — I guess? — but my brain is wired differently.

My process of choosing movies involves a few more steps. So, I figured sharing it could generate an interesting conversation between cinephiles and a more neutral audience.

Akos Peterbencze

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